I like to make a mess out of my life. I'm comlicated and even when I know I can have everything I want, I find myself trying to make everything worse than it is.
Yes, i'm such an asshole.. and this is what I mean when I say I can't stand myself.
I get from my parents everything I ask.. and now i'm like "should I study or work??".. oh god, if they're paying maria just fucking go and study your ass out if necessary...
Even ifmy life now looks like this wall full of cookies and Im like standing in front of it trying to decide for ONE OF THEM.. and only ONE.time of my life, yes I am.