on todays episode the top 3 things that would get me lots of boyfriends (not that i care)

thing number 1

my dorky nail polish...

#2 the combination

fat ass & those xmas pj's

#3 THIS AMAZING HAT

update

wicked was amazing :)

The lake house

I'm finally here...back in the land where I smell like love spell lol
I love winter, I love the snow, I loveeeee america...we had agus's graduation ceremony in Bloomington yesterday morning and in the afternoon we had the graduation party at the lake house (amazing, 3 floors) , here are some pictures of my weekend... im loving it!

my room

my bathroom of course

graduation and the concert

There's only one word to describe how I feel: FREE.



And this are the photos of the concert we enjoyed like a month ago and I never got arround to post them 'cause I was so bussy trying to graduate from school

All About Your Heart

Tomorrow is the day... tomorrow is the day when i'm finally gonna be free, free?. I'll be done with school in less than 12 hours and I still can[t believe it.

Time has gone by so very fast and my emotions keep spinning arround! I cant process any more information in my head. I can't take any more responsabilities for now, IM FREE.

Free from trying to please others, free from trying to please my self professionally speaking, free from trying so hard to keep in truck and dont dissapoint anybody on tin the path...free from this life. Not that i hate it, but im OH-SOO-READY to start "a new life" and i'm so ready to let the child go...to let the teenager go, to let this young adult go! let them free, let them all free...let my self be me and let my life follow my heart.

today I feel good, i just feel I want to cry but still can't... I want to be happy so bad that crying doesn't fitt well in this situation...

It's all about my heart tonight.

My wish

I love the fact this is a private blog.. It gives me enought freedom to write about everything I want.
Once uppon at time I read that blogs were meant to make peoples dreams come true, and I think it worked for me.
Im leaving in 9 days.
But here's the thing I need to ask for tonight, I wish my teacher to be concidered enough with me this thursday, I wish God to give me patience and confidence to go out there and show what I know, I need to be confident! I need to trust myself, I wish this all go fast and I wish I pass that exam and I wish I graduate this friday.



see my self soon
after this friday lol


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7 days

Till i graduate from college...
this just feels odd.. i mean, i've been complaining about having to study something that I don't like for about 5 years and now that i'm "done" it feels weird, scary and blah

You've lost your muchness

Dear lovely year 2010,

what if it was agree that 2010 was over tonight?...would you do it for me? would you make me that happy?.

There's something funny that's being happening to me lately, my neighbor's name is Jesus.. and any time we (my cousin and I) need something we just ask him... Jesus, the neighbor, not the "real" one... and now it has became an internal joke so we're all the time saying "I'll just go ask Jesus if he'll do that for me"...

So, should this post be dedicated to him?

IDK, but getting to the point of this: PLEASE YEAR, PLEASE LISTEN TO MY PRAYERS AND FLY AWAY ASAP.... I need a break from you, you have to let me live! you were an amazing year (not) and i've learn tons of things (not those many) plus, i'm gonna graduate (hopefully) AND I'll get to move out to where I think I'll be happier.. so please please please get the fout of here

Thank you very much
with love... (not a lot)
Maria

Soulmates.

People think that a soulmate is the person who you perfectly match with... that's what everybody wants.. but an authentic soulmate is like a mirror, is that person who gets out of you everything you have inside, that person who makes you look inside yourself so you can change your life. A real soulmate is, for sure, the most important person you're gonna meet in your life, because they destroy all the walls that have you enclosed and they make you wake up to a real life. but....being with a soulmate for ever?, no way. you live a sad life. A soulmate arrives to your life to take away the veil in your eyes, and then... they leave.

let's go

I am ready for a change...

right?

no me acuerdo

nada de anoche. Nunca mas tomo tanto absolut.. y dejo que una desconocida amanezca en mi cama.

THAT PERSON IS NOT WORTH IT

I've known a lot of people in my short life. I have a pocket full of friends that I would like to keep with me my entire life, and I will. Because they deserve to be in my life and I believe I deserve to be on their lives.

I've grown out from a lot of shitty people I met in the past. And, as the years pass by, I'm starting to notice there is more shit in this world than real love. And what I mean with this, and you really have to have had a sociable life in order to understand this, is that you never know the person that's next to you even if you've known him/her since you were born.

And i've met them from all kinds... the ones who tried so hard to impress me, the ones who didn't give a shit about my life and then turned into my best friends, the ones that only wanted to have sex with me, the ones who needed popularity from me, the ones who hated me for no reason, the ones who hated me with tons of reasons.... a lot of them loved me for nothing... "you've charmed everybody you've met" my mother told me one day, and of course I didn't believe her... but who will?, she's my mother so she will tell me what I want to hear.

Here I am, trying to find the words to describe what people mean to me. And I cant.And is not that I dont feel anything for anybody... in fact i feel love, hate, care and everything else about tons of people.

But in this long way i've lived, I have basically met 2 types of people. And if you like me, you dont really wanna be in the first type.

 

type number one: I DONT LIKE YOU AND I NEVER WILL

 in general, it takes a very long, deep and harsh path to actually get a spot in my heart. And when I look into it, the price is not even worth it. Because, lets face the truth, I dont really care about you.

It seems to me that I have had this image of me for so long that i've never learned to express my emotions to tipe number one, and IM SO BAD AT FAKING IT (not IT, but this yes, haha). I've developed this stupid habit where I pretend to be mad, or excited about something, or insulted, when really all i'm focusing on is I don't give a shit about you. And, lucky me, type number one is here to stay, and they'll always be, because that's my destiny. The worse part is when I convince my self that I like someone under tipe one section, and I develope this sick relationship where I convence myself that I LOVE this person... but of course it doesn't work.. it doesnt matter if it is friendship, love relationship, work relationship.. anything, it is NOT gonna work.

The thing I hate the most tho, it that this tipe of person is fake, they've always been and they would always be. They either show too much emotion or pretend to like something so much or they even change their entire personalities to stay by my side.

The later is the most annoying one. I repeat: it's no worth it.

but as i said, they're here to stay.

type number two: LUCKY YOU, LUCKY ME.

We have nothing in common, or we have everything in common. But i've liked type number two since the first day we met. We have awesome relationships that can go through all the types you can imagine and I would cherish them forever.usually, I meet numer twos when i'm in a good sociable mood. Types number two dont admire me, they dont try to impress me, they dont bother me with shit, they dont bug the hell out of me trying to get to know me better. type number two accepts me as I am. And so we go trough life as if we've known each other from the first day we opened our eyes, we never stay together, though. Types number two usually leave my life before I can notice it, and so, just like that, they're gone. But I can find them eveywhere I go.... because with types 2 i'm NEVER GONNA BE ALONE... they're all over the world, in ushuaia, rio grande, australia, chile, cordoba, USA, tailandia, czech republic, russia, brasil, buenos aires... types 2 make me lucky, they don't know it yet, but they're making me a better person every day. And i'm happy we met, because without them I wouldn't be who I am.

So either if you're 1 or 2, don't leave... we all need somebody to disgust and somebody to love

I am a whole new person.. im in shock... lol.

Ok, so this is what happened today, I woke up early, I'VE BEEN STUDYING ALL DAY.. and now i'm so ready for bed and a perfect day tomorrow with my friends planning our trips arround the world.

UGHHHH THAT SOUNDS SOOO NOT LIKE ME HAHAHAHA ... i'm turning into an american asshole huh?... nope, always me.. and yes, i'm having fun in my life, i'm enyoing it so very much ... BUT there's no need to fake the excitment...

so, i'm going to bed now. but I wanted to leave here this photo.

because if I had magic powers, I would turn her into a pocket person.. and take her everywhere with me... for the rest of my life. I love her, like I LOVE NOBODY ELSE IN THIS WORLD.

COMPLICATED

I like to make a mess out of my life. I'm comlicated and even when I know I can have everything I want, I find myself trying to make everything worse than it is.

Yes, i'm such an asshole.. and this is what I mean when I say I can't stand myself.

I get from my parents everything I ask.. and now i'm like "should I study or work??".. oh god, if they're paying maria just fucking go and study your ass out if necessary...

Even ifmy life now looks like this wall full of cookies and Im like standing in front of it trying to decide for ONE OF THEM.. and only ONE.

I'm ready for the time of my life, yes I am.

I FEEL IN MY HEART

I'm starting to get seriously concern about my health...

I've spent the last 30 hours awake... but, awake and doing stuff.. reading, studying, getting homework done, going to starbucks for some iced tea and eating.. tons of cereal.

This is serious.

I know I'm excited about my future and I know life right now kinda sucks because I'm gonna finish school here and move up north to finally study in a real college and no the piece of shit that we have here...

BUT... There's NO NEED to be so anxious about this 6 months early

I still need to go skiing, finish school.. take exams.. take the toefl... pay USC and find a roommate in case I decide not to go live on campus... although that sounds like so much fun...uh huh... so I'll probably go for it.

On top of all this, I need to get a car ... car insurance and blah blah... and pay for that...

Oh well, 30 hs of having my head spinning up is NO BUENO.

but there so many good things about this.

First off my tv is on Disney channel right now and they're playing HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL I... So cute...

it just make me happy.

well, the other very good thing is that i'll be super close to my american friends and we'll have "the time of our lives"...yes, i'm lucky sometimes.

and at the end, the general idea of leaving argentina is such so nice. Nobody that had never lived in a country that still uses VHS reproducers could understand why.

21st century here I come.

AS TROY AND GABRIELLA ARE Singing: "THIS COULD BE THE START OF SOMETHING NEW"...and it would !!!

MAGIC

oh oh oh is magic, you know...

never believe its no so...

Ok, i'm starting my blog again.. my life .. one day at a time...

I'll do it my way and I'll keep it secret from everybody else, at least for now. who cares anyway? lets face it maria, nobody reads your wrong spelled blog ... whatsoever.

I'm moving to LA YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

NIENIE

Tomorrow is my exam and I haven't even finish reading everything im supposed to read lol




But I just wanted to stop by and ask you to check out this video, I've started reading this woman's blog a while ago... and she is AMAZING, I love the way she write, she is such an inspiration.. Her kids are adorable... Everything, just wonderful...



Thanks nienie!!

This is what you missed last week

I'm in the middle of all my exams... I got a B last week on one of those stupid midterm exams and this friday i'll have to take another one...
so last week was, books, books and more books...
starbucks helps tho, I enjoy coffe and books... I can handle them better like that

And, of course, texting and emailing is includeed in that starbucks combo... so, i've been a happy girl... although i hate studying... who doesn't hate that anyway?